Why is it the hardest thing in the world to just be able to say “I love myself”? Why is it so hard for me to be confident? Why is it that when I look at myself closely in the mirror I get these feelings of disgust as though I’ve seen my worst enemy inches in front of me? Why do I shiver in anxiety when I have nothing left to think about but myself? I’ve spent more time with myself more than anyone else in the word. I’ve spent 20 years in this body of mine, with this mind of mine and yet the first adjectives I can think of to describe myself are negative ones?
I work so hard on myself everyday.. I work to get great grades, to be as good at music as possible, to learn everything I can, to get to know everyone I can, to make friends, love others, do good for others, and survive but the one thing that holds me back from all of those things is my complete lack of self esteem.
I’ve been working my ass off this semester to really KNOW how to sing and it all goes to shit when it means the most because I’m not confident.
I wasn’t happy being in Queens, so I left and moved somewhere else. I decided a music education career wasn’t for me, so I switched to vocal performance. My whole life I’ve hated the skin I’m in and I cannot escape it. I can’t just change bodies and be happier…There’s no textbook way to love yourself..
I try to eat healthier, I work harder, I put myself out more… and at the end of the day I’m exactly where I left off in my relationship with myself…
It’s getting REAL exhausting. There’s a switch that needs to go off but I’m scared it’s going to be way too late by the time I discover it.
This girl in choir today talked to me about how she had all these awful insecurities that really kept her back in a lot of things, and she would cry about it very often.. then one day she just realized that her appearance is something that doesn’t MAKE her at all.. This concept is so foreign to me. I mean, how do you just not care. How do you become so happy with yourself?
… I really hope I learn. I’m sick of this awful treatment I give myself.
This spoke to me
bernese mountain dog is a bit afraid of the camera
Next Friday needs to be here like now
me first day of the semester: I’M GONNA GET AN A!!!!! I BETTER ORGANIZE MY NOTES!!!! I’M WRITING THIS IN MY PLANNER!!!! THIS IS SO COOL!!!!! I’M SETTING MY ALARM 30 MINUTES EARLY
me the night before finals week: SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT shit shit shit shit shit shit shit… shit… sh…. ss.ss….. ..i don’t care haha
so finn litterally talks about tripping on DMT because of the near death experience he caused and how this is posible because of the brain’s natural excretion of DMT during a n.d.e. He then goes on to say that tripping helped him understand everything, including the irony that we won’t know everything until the end, meaning we’re all born to die…… Also, earlier in the episode, he describes how everything small is a smaller version of something big, and as he trips after taking off the glasses, he sees universes inside molecules as the camera view expands. This expands on the theory that the universe is all connected like a biological system……… is this really a kid’s show?